27th feybruarry

dear dairy,

something incredible happened today. i didn't feel like dying!! during aerobics!! in fact i focused and i think did a whole lot better!! here are more !!!'s!!!
does this mean that i'm finally, gasp, MINOR-ly fit? could be. or we didn't have a really hard work out this time.
whatever, i am going to have vmars's body even if it means torture and pain and descending into valhalla. ohdude. i think i'm going to cry. (whimper)

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so i have been replacing god with dude. as in ohmydude and dude.honestly. i've tried a lot of other words (like ghost. goat. wikibanana(not really)) but they don't work. since i like the word dude a lot, so. the reason is i have thoughts that saying ohmygod a lot is almost blasphemous. i don't know. i'm weird.
so far i have been 60% successful. it's really hard to remember to replace that special word.

it's hard saying goodbye, and my heart was really major heavy. but it's only temporary, i promise, i promise.

ancient bloodbath is hott

"do you think vorenus's wife is hot?"

"OH. i have been trying to deny that... vorenus IS hot!!! thankdude someone else thinks the same! initially i thought mark anthony was the only one hot but he hasn't been around a lot, right?"

"dude, i said vorenus's wife niobe is hot. as far as i'm concerned mark anthony IS the only one hot male."

"dude, you MUST excuse me while i go CRAWL UNDER A ROCK."

january 25th

i think the onion jam did me in yesterday. onion jam. onion jam. onion jam. onion jam.
there are jams for onions. what a world we live in.

jan23rd

Kate: Maybe. Or, uh... maybe that whole love thing is just a grown-up version of Santa Claus; just a myth we've been fed since childhood. So, we keep buying magazines, joining clubs, and doing therapy and watching movies with hit pop songs played over love montages all in a pathetic attempt to explain why our love Santa keeps getting caught in the chimney.

Leopold: We are not courting, Kate. If we were, as a man of honour, I would have informed you of my intentions in writing.

Kate, and Leopold.

thank you and goodnigh.

i have a very yoooooge bone to pick with a show that rhymes with school, tool, wool, ghoul, and FOOL.
1. last week's task was unfair, playing hostesses to a bunch of socialites. i'm not going to name names but i know who they were. you were probably very smug about the fact that your daddy sent you to a finishing school in switzerland to learn all the proper social etiquettes, weren't you? so you laughed ha-ha-ha at these poor girls who didn't know which plate was meant for dessert. you, madam, is no lady. laughing uproariously at peope who weren't as fortunate as you. go back to finishing school. pah!
2. is someone retarded? because seriously no one goes around telling everyone she is the prettiest, most charming, most attractive, etc.. unless she has been encouraged to do so all her life, by which i mean STOP DOING IT. it's very unbecoming.
3. i am appalled that this show promotes inner beauty BUT concentrates heavily on looking like a model. a)slimming center when none of these people are remotely fat. GET REAL. b)having to choose dresses that fits only models. this just means designers doesn't design for real women. only one type(models). not most of us.
4. i am also appalled at the dirty trick they played on someone at the gala. having people pretend to worship the ground she walks on then laughing at her behind her back. tell me, is that beautiful? preying on a person's weaknesses? for reals? it's kind of sickening to me, actually. god-awful. i can't believe the galls of these people.
5. i was horrified to see someone's very visible skin-glue. hon, that ain't body glitter, NUH-UH.
6. you know, america's next top model is better than this crap. at least it doesn't pretend to be something it's not.

can it please just be over already so that i can get it out of my system?

jan eyteenth

titus pullo, you were my favourite right up to the moment you bashed that poor man to death on account of your uncontrollable rage. dude. i do not dig intentional murderers(sawyer was different; he was a victim of circumstances).

january 17th

if i cut my hair in bangs, i will remind myself of janeane garofalo or kelly osbourne. not that i don't think janeane garofalo absolutely rocks, but i don't like bangs on janeane garofalo. and kelly osbourne looks weird 89% of the time.

jan 16th

i will not watch that new hercules show on astro(axn?). it is not historically accurate.
i read in the blurb that in that show alcmena(hercules's mom) hates him. this is not true.
alcmena i.e hercules's mother dotes on him. as does his fake father. it is hera i.e zeus's wife i.e hercules's stepmom who loathes him until the end of (his)time(at least until he finally gets to heaven).
like, seriously, get your facts right. before you go on producing anything.

i am floored that jane bennet was rosamund pike. the last time i saw ms. rosamund was when she was ms. frost? something cold, i remember, in bond's yesterday once more? tomorrow dies yesterday? something. she is so pretty. ms. pike!! you are sooooo pretty!!!!
and it is such a pleasure to see donald sutherland in pride and prejudice (beams). it's funny but after all these time, i think he has been my favourite all along (of all them sutherlands).

fry 13

MOM, I'M REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT THAT LIPOSUCTION. SERIOUSLY!!!

aerobics is descending into hades.

Friday the 13th Two-oh-oh-six

Jem and Scout Finch were a lot smarter than me at the ages of 6 up to 13(I knew them for such a short time. Sigh).
My only regret is that I didn't pick this up sooner. I love it. It gave me the same feelings I had with The Outsiders. Which means I cried a little. Hotdangit.

remember the time i kinda had a falling out with simple plan?
we've made up. (beams)

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

dearest diary,

it is now the year 2006. i'm still single has never ever been truly, madly, deeply in love with anyone before except tom cruise, brad pitt, colin firth hahaha whooops i mean colin farrell and yeah that's it. and crushes on pierre andre, jonathan bennet(tiny one) and logan echolls. but that's truly it. no one else. but i may have forgotten a few names but really, diary: IT DOESNT MATTER.

diary, what should i do????? everyone seems worried about my state of singleness so i think i should too. why don't i have a boyfriend yet diary???? what drives boys away? is it my looks? my speech? my dressing sense? my unquenchable desire for absolute power???? what diary what???? i have no idea.

this year a lot of my friends are getting married diary. imagine me having to attend their weddings alone, single, unaccompanied, OH THE HORRROR!!! how will i stand it, diary dearest?? what will i do?!!! to be at the center of attention, people whispering how lonely and sad and pathetic i am, even if i look absolutely gorgeous and ravishing, but alas, dear diary, i came alone and unattended. OH! i cannot take it dear diary, i cannot. i simply must find an answer. or find excuses for not attending their weddings. NO! NO! i mustn't do that diary! i must remain strong. i must attend the weddings with my head held high, WITH or WITHOUT a male companion. i wonder if i should hire male escorts. remind me dear diary to scoot around for numbers. do they even have it here in malaysio? you know, a long time ago my friend proposed building up this business together but i guess it didnt work out because i insisted on hogging only the best looking ones. well one must look their best, right, diary? i don't think i was TOTALLY in the wrong.

anyway, yeah, so, hi me. what am i going to do?????? what if i don't find someone even in this year, dear diary? what will happen to me?? am i going to end up old and alone forever??? surrounded by cats?? watching reruns of buffy the vampire slayer, angel, veronica mars, CSI the original no scrap that, i'm not that interested in CSI anymore, wonder why, lost, justice league, kim possible, lizzie mcguire, akademi fantasia and other television shows??

i don't know why, diary, i really don't. is it too damn hard for the world to send me a guy who is really goodlooking, charming, articulate, rich, considerate, funny, really nice, doesn't have a big ego, and reads shakespeare? is it??? i don't think so, right? there are like, a kabillion people on earth. why couldn't the world send me a jonathan bennet look-alike who has all the qualities i am looking for in a man? this baffles me, world, and i need answers. why won't you jest git along??

tonight, dear diary, i am going to wish a wish. a special wish. a wish that will go, star light, star bright, first star i see tonight, i wish i may, i wish i might, send me an awesome man tonight. or tomorrow. or somewhen in the near future, that would be soo great, thanks. d'you think it will work, dear diary?

if i don't find someone this year diary, i'll die!!! i'll just wither away, and DIE!!! i hope i don't, though, dear diary. because i've got vacation plans and i think they're gonna be awesome.

good night, diary dear. my brain is tired from thinking about my state of single-ness. kisses and hugs!!!!!

yours truly,

neri bennet-echolls.

janjan the 8th

yowza. you won't BELIEVE how many people(i know) are going to be married this year. a million. gadjillion. kabillion!

when i was little(circa 14,15) i thought i would marry at the age of 21. ha ha! hooboy, was i NAIVE.

jan05

i cried a little inside for logan last night. at the ending of v.m 1.0.
:(

january4ourth

1.we need miseries in our lives, just to remind ourselves that we are alive.
2.there is this car in the basement carpark that has been there for more than two weeks in the same parking spot. why is it still there? why hasn't it moved? is it a)a getaway car b)involved in murder c)abandoned because of a murder crime d)a weapon of murder? curiouser and curiouser.
3.i felt like crying looking at her(pictures).it's not normal right?

3rd january

i am a wreck over veronica and logan's impending breakup. because i know where he's coming from.

get a grip girl it's just an american teevee show.

2nd january

i sucked my stomach in while taking pictures. it's slightly better. but there's no bringing back the cuteness factor. i think i lost that a long time ago. woe.

they're bringing supernatural. and prison break. freaking yays for JENSEN ACKLES!!! also that wentworth guy, he's awesomely interesting-looking, but i kinda lost it for him since the gay rumors.